addicted

every minute of every hour for the past 9 months i have been losing my mind. i can.t fight it, the feeling is overwhelming, i feel possesed by this urge to follow your steps, sense your presence, know your are still there.
I suffer your pain, steal a bit of your joy and mind read you while you fake sleeping. I am so miserable knowing you despise me, due to my inferior education, my exotic believes and my half breed origin. I lost hope but I believe that vanishing you from my life is a coward act, I am already addicted to you. I just have to face my urge and tame it. It.s my weakness, not your respisability, your are irresistible as me.