1.Yokai

And it landed in the edge of my bed. I never again could sleep for it tortured me, as I would be his or for no one. It was 30 years ago, tonight I will tell you the story.

I lived with my two sisters in the fourth floor of a flat that faced towards a english house. it was a masonry 3 floor slim house, with a front garden and a small garage. I was really convinced that the house was made of chocolate and cookie. I was deceived by the doors looked like squared dark chocolate doors, the cookie fancioned roof. The tiny colored windows. As I recalled. Hansel and Gretel were once kipnapped in a place like this one.

I was trapped too. I recently was labeled as asthmatic. So it was forbiden to face the cold. I was born in a city in a altitude of 2600meters above sea level. I was a latin american bizarre london imitation if a city. Cloudy. Fogy. Cold as ever lasting winter. Full of evil souls.

And my mother was a lady full of rules. Don.t go out. Someone might hurt you in the park. Bad men lurk at night..home is your fortress. Only here you will be safe.

Well. Fate is cruel and I started having asthma attacks. All at night. All after his visits where he  locked me  and told me to close my eyes. I was taught to be obedient. To keep my promises. To endure pain and suffering. I started to get mute as I could articulate what what happening.

Once he hurted be. I felt dusconfort. I was soured for days. I told my mother. Please explain what happens with kissing. You might  get pregnant?. My mother was the guardian of innocence. So she told me that women lose their virginity when they got married. I asked whar was virginity. She brought a book. She showed women anatomy. I asked again. But that is down there. How does the man manage to get her pregnant. Is it a hard long kiss? Yes she answered.

Once i was hearing a radio brocasting. The lady claimed that she had been violated. She was crying. She said she had been given alcohol and that she was beaten. I thought. I am soured because i was raped. I asked my grandmother. What is rape? She replied. Its when evil men hurt you bad.

My mother was a great keeper of decency. Until he came home drunk abd i saw him in underwear. I asked. What is that between his legs? He said. Men have a pipi. I didn.t get it until one was inserted in my mouth 5years later. I didn t get pregnant but i am still afraid if those long things.

So that day . When i first faced fear. Then yokai landed on my bed and cane every night to torture me as i was going to be his or for no one.

hannya

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