Enjoying myself

http://themindunleashed.org/2014/07/10-toxic-relationships-mentally-strong-people-avoid.html

 I am really troubled by the sensation of being a burden. When my powerful chi starts to wearn out, I start fading and my gray spectrum makes me heavy, moody and slow. I loose the spark and people just run away. I would love to stay focused and have the courage to build the equilibrium to be me. Then, the hard time would be making my companion go, as I enjoy myself in my solitude.

Being alone doesn´t hurt anymore, number 10 in the list is sad but not suicidal. I would like to share my time with another soul, but that is not a dispair situation anymore.