Tourist

I am to leave behind being a tourist
I want to belong to a place
Become rooted and grow
But trial is not success

It's never enough
Not socially skilled
Not brave
Not slim
Not mother tongue
Now I  am not young
Or racially pure

Rejection hurts but it is more painful regret
Because if you try, at least you have a glimpse of wonder
Life.s so hard than even a couple minutesof bliss are worth it