Parenting

Recently I joint a therapy group online for survivers. I will not disclose why were are United, but I find it both enlightening and hopeless.

As adults we have a mesh of different life experiences so we can help each other because we understand the emotional reactions of each other.

I have learned about compassionate to me through hearing the pain of others. I have grown because I can feel my evolution in the healing path due to the fact that I have a huge tool box to cope.

But at the same time I see others lost in dispare. What makes me more concerned is that they have children.

I was single at first I rejected parenting. I come from a huge dysfunctional family. I knew that I didn't want my children to get attached to the people that raised me. I am pretty broken.

I thought I would mature and get over my childhood but I had a traumatic encounter with the truth. So I decided I didn't want children.

I got married, I had a loving relationship so I tried to get pregnant. Years of trials and a miscarriage left me hopeless. Anyway my partner was infertile to some degree.

Now that I am happily divorce I understand that I need to heal if I ever want to become a mother.

But in the other hand, I have fears. I am not sure that good parenting is possible. I have met all kinds of people and few are really happy adults. And their dispair comes from emotional reactivity.

A son or daughter is the biggest project in a human being.s life. You are receiving a person to be, so you can show him or her the world. You have to prepare them of amusement and for pain.

People have kids for the wrong reasons. Even without one. But they don't understand the consequences.

You have to be ready. You have to there. You have to go by the hand with this project for the rest of your life.