Be urself

Its nice to be important but is more important to be nice i was told by the first european i met

Now i know
I feel israeli ppl are too harsh
As i am colombian and too polite. My grandparents were native americans and my grandmothers were daughters of europeans.
I love having eastern europe friends. My fellow russian friends are polite and they have this bizzard discipline i have because my fatherms lutheran religious way of being.
But meeting already several europeans,
Well, the politeness has new unkown frontiers
I am wiser, i know this there can be   too much niceness.
Hospitality is a great value i cherish because i am a welcoming soul if i sense i am not in danger.
But the people i met try i all the ways possible to not disturb. Make u happy. Be liked even at the cost of feeling miserable.

And life is a balanced mathematical equation you have to calculate infinite times as the variables change. You have to be as steel. Strong but resilence, you are flexible but u return to ur original form without damage. That is the ral path to pursuit  happiness, you hunt your own happiness; in this way. I feel that azkenazi jewish people lost their identity as europeans. Their trauma as rejected europeans citizens during the war made them reject their civilized essence.
Don.t get me wrong. Sabras are full of love as a cactus would be bursting with water. But they have huge barb wire selfdefenses. And they use them as cactus. I am tired of bleeding. I am no masochist yet.

Europeans were wildly happy countrymen before Rome. Christianity with its prohibition policy for the soul tamed them at last. But people as Nieztche proved that europeans althought they tried not to disturb sometimes they can be again their true barbarians selves and you can see their amazing vivid character, if you open to them as my native indian self.

Sure. I will continue my europeans weekends and my hosting of more lovely europeans souls. I will find the schmalbach town were my relatives came from in Germany and I will buy a house in my great grandfather.s italian town.