I want to be a dragon

As I explained before in a previuos piece

http://0marsia.blogspot.co.il/2016/05/genetics.html?m=1

I am an complex woman. but I am always labeled. Generalizations are a  really primitive way to see the world. Last label was my diagnosis. Its bizarre.  I am not a christian but people view me as a sinner for I have a diagnosis. Its just a consequence of absurd circunstances.

There is not asking WHY? its a waste of energy to pity myself. Because all the risk possible as a child were met with the worst affectation for my emotional state. I lost wellness and she ran away for good. I was raised by religious people. from the fanatic spectrum. Totally incoherent pair of broken human beings. trying to parent in the most moral way. showing off their duty to people as me and my sisters are the image of perfectionism. but we were severely wounded by this nonsense luteran religious way of living.

I am jewish because my grandmother was. I lack knowledge in torah but she presented genesis to me. I don.t speak hebrew but i pray to G.d. But I was raised christian due to tge fact that my greatgrandmother grew up orfan. my mother married a christian person. later on all the family was forced to become luteran. I was always jewish in my heart but here in Israel I understood why.

So. I am not interested in explainjng myself anymore. This is the last time.

I lost total interest in validation in front of others. I gave this explanation and tge genetics disclosure.

Take me as I am or I gladly invite you to move on. I won.t become something I am not unless I can become a dragon.

http://0marsia.blogspot.co.il/2016/04/tatsuya.html?m=1