impersonator

I wake up again to the same nighmare that haunts me with the sudden midnight asthma attack since I was 3. I have been the whole day with my father, as he returned from his far away work to spend the weekend. He visits once a month as he is this event that jumps to our lives to give us fun and gifts.  We are 6 sisters as he continues to insist to mother he should have a boy. Each of us will spend that weekend twice a year with him, as he pampers his princesses. But as this is my birthday, he decided to skip my sister and give me a third chance of his full attention. He seems different, he holds me tighter, he asphyxiates me with more kisses, he is tickling me in a harsher way. He came back in the middle of my asthma attack from the bar, rescuing me from my bed, telling my mother to protect my sisters tonight from the monster on their own room.  As I realize that the whiskey flavored kissing became biting and the monster  impersonated my daddy,  as he closes the door to my parents room while I am being place on their bed all alone.